talk to me… Thank you a lot.
I know that it’s up to me how I look at it. And I try to look at it positively - like I said, I try not to care, and I try not to let it get to me. I do.
But sometimes it feels like having someone will make everything else… not vanish completely, but make it all better at least. I don’t really tell many people what’s really going on with me, how I’m really feeling. Ever. I guess I’m looking for, wanting, someone who I can share everything with and not feel… I don’t know. Like an idiot.
I don’t really know what’s wrong with me. I’m rambling. There are worst things that could happen. I’ll just keep saying that to myself, and ignore everything like I do until it all becomes too much again. Thank you for listening.
wait… don’t ignore it!
it is perfectly understandable how you feel. you only want what all of us want. there is nothing wrong with that and you are in no way an idiot. what you did, opening up and telling me, was really good. you need to let it out. but try and accept it and analyze it without reacting.
they are your feelings and there is NOTHING WRONG with how you feel.
don’t ever suppress, just accept that it is how you feel and that it is ok to feel that way. move forward and try to love the way you are. those feelings will creep back in, don’t suppress, don’t get upset, and understand that they will creep back in. once they do, analyze them and work on liking you for you again. eventually those feelings will come less and less.
please feel free to talk to me anytime you need to. it’s ok and i will always listen. i understand that you need to get it out.
take care :)
