I’ve fell in love with the only guy I’ve had sex, we had nothing in common except just a friend, I knew he doesn’t loved me, but still yet I really loved him, he left me at 5 months into the relationship. I felt depressed, so I stopped to talk to him and start dating guys that doesn’t care about me and I doesn’t care about them. I started dating a friend of mine that I didn’t know he has drugs problems, he introduced me to marijuana’s world and I loved it. My ex found out I was dating that dude he can’t stand and he got disappointed on me ‘cause i told him that i was getting high, the deal is i’m so confused ‘cause he was begging me to drop the drugs, he said i’m special and that i am unique, I don’t know if believe him or not ‘cause he lied me before just to have sex with me when we already broke. The other guy, my friend and I stopped dating too, because of his deal with drugs (and i really don’t want to fall into drugs) and he also is jealous possessive, he!
found out I was talking to my ex, he use to get aggressive under marijuana effects, in a couple of occasions I was afraid of him ‘cause I never discussed like that with nobody. We still being friends and love each other a little more but just that. They don’t know each other but they know about the existence of the other and they know too what each other made to me, they hate each other. This picture I took it for my friend and I was feeling sad, depressed and Useless. I love this two boys but I need to get them out of my life, I am broken enough. I swear I love myself but the way I do is a dangerous way.
i hope you realize how beautiful you are…
i want so badly to tell you how special, and how beautiful and how unique you are… and you are… but you have to see that for yourself. you deserve the world.
you’re photo… it’s so beautiful and honest and so sincere. to think that something so beautiful came from so much pain. but it did, and you are unique and you are like none other… and you show strength in your vulnerability.
…i hope you realize how beautiful you are.
love, matt
