So.. I find myself in a position where perhaps I don’t feel I am being completely honest with myself. I’ve grown a lot. And I thought that I really loved my body… and then I sat down with my camera today, completely naked, without makeup, fresh out of the shower and was actually a little bothered by the things showing up in pictures.
Stretch marks, fat rolls, blemishes, dark marks… they are all a part of me so why am I so bothered by them?
So I’ll post them and share them. And continue to come to terms with the fact that I am still growing and learning to love my body as it is and not just how I can make it appear.
Beautiful photo set!
(via imthebeezkneezbaby)
For the guest-directed self, the third. I skipped the second one ‘cause it’s cold outside.
I feel like I cheated on this one, though: the instructions are to shower, but I took a bath. And while I’m looking into the camera, you can’t see it so well. What you can see, of course, is Pityriasis rosea. It’s a rash I contracted earlier this week somehow. It’s not contagious, but it will take a month or so to go away, and there’s nothing I can do about it. That big spot at the base of my ribs? That’s the “herald.” The first to appear, the warning sign.
So you see why I’m in taking baths on a Saturday night.
In the past two years I’ve changed my life. Change is not impossible. This picture is of me during my second trip to Russia. I won’t go back to my old way of being.
Change can truly be a wonderful thing; I’m glad you’ve found the good kind. Russia sounds wonderful, I’ve always wanted to go myself!
You don’t have to go back to anything you don’t want to go back to.
—Diana
First off, your blog is both a source of comfort and inspiration to me. I’m a writer. This is me on location as a first-time director. I always produce and write (a feature and now two shorts). I often get asked why I don’t act, or why I’m “just a writer” and this astounds me. As if my being a relatively young female necessitates a desire to be looked at above a degree of creative control. I didn’t have time before shooting to put on makeup or do anything to my hair and it was incredibly liberating in a way that said, “I’m in charge today. I’m here to tell a story and that’s the most important thing to me.”
I think it’s on my face. My sister, who catches me at every significant moment, took this picture.
I’m glad we can be comforting and inspiring for you, Marsha.
It’s unfortunate that physical beauty and creative energy are often placed at a disconnect and are treated quite differently. Your natural look is really very beautiful, but I’m sure your writing is even more astounding. Remember, you are always in charge. Keep telling your stories, and people will continue to find the beauty in them, too.
Your smirk is so endearing and lovely!
— Diana